May 28, 2020

Twinkle Twinkle

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A twinkle with the eye changes the whole picture.

When I was just about 20 years old, i.e., in the mid-1970s, I saw an ophthalmologist and in the course of the examination, he carried out the Schober Test, which is used to check binocular vision ("lazy eye"). This test consisted of a red circle and a green cross being projected to the wall and a red/green filter in front of your eye. 

This is, what happened to me... 

So I was undergoing exactly that test, and the doctor asked me if, and if so, in which direction the green cross is located in the circle. I looked at the point where I saw the red circle and asked the ophthalmologist, if he would turn on the light for the green cross, so that I could give him an answer. I felt that the ophthalmologist was very surprised. "The light is on," he said. Weird - there was nothing there that I could see. Again I asked him whether he kept the light on. Then I unconsciously I must have twinkled with my eye and changed the direction of my look a bit and - like a miracle, there was the cross. Well, looking at it a bit longer and more intense, it was "gone" again, and again I thought "Hey, switch the light on". I twinkled again - oh, there it is. This was very confusing for the doctor, too, and he just thought that I was suffering from a "kind of colorblindness". He could not know better at that time in the 1970s. 

So what I learned from that (even though only many years later): This means that even when looking at an object directly it "disappeared", and when "not looking directly" - or as I say today "look around the corner" - it was visible. Today I'm sure that was already an indication for the macular dystrophy, but probably nobody was aware of symptoms of macular degeneration/dystrophy in young people. 

So I have probably long unconsciously my peripheral vision strongly with integrated and possibly also "trained" to be able to recognize something more than just "peripheral". 


About this text

Jutta's Story texts were originally written in 2016-2017.
end of 2018 I am officially legally blind..
And I am proud to be a member of the Malta Society of the Blind.